Don't think, just do.

I’ve been up every night until like 5AM. I don’t even get tired at that time… I just force myself to go to sleep. I’m suppose to go to the chiropractor in the morning at 11, but I doubt that’s going to happen. I forced myself to sleep at 1ish, but I didn’t fall asleep until 5AM; it’s eight in the morning now. I only had 3 hours of sleep -______________________________________- not even, I woke up a little earlier to talk to my step-dad. It’s not that I don’t want to go to sleep. I can’t stop thinking. It kills me inside so much, and it keeps me up for the LONGEST time. Pulling out student loans is probably the most stressful situation I’ve ever been in my entire life. Financial aid isn’t helping me much because my mom’s income is way above average. I’m wondering if they even considered that she is a single mother with 4 kids. The deadline is on July 8, and I have to come up with $18,000 SOMEHOW. All I have right now is $17,000 worth of scholarships. The loans from the bank have interest rates that are high in the sky. I don’t even want to consider that option, and they probably won’t even give me the remaining balance I have to pay for school. My last resort is to put off school for a semester or at least until I could build my own credit, and pull out a student loan for myself. 

Vincent and I are suppose to go together, but I don’t see that happening this upcoming semester… At least not right now. I need a miracle. Either way I’m planning to move there as soon as I save enough money. I’ll probably take a few classes at a community college there, so I could live off campus when I transfer to JWU. It’s not like I have many options left. I hope it all works out for the best. It just sucks not being able to go to the school I’ve been wanting to go to for the longest time while all my friends are off to college elsewhere. 

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-John Mayer