“You can choose to blame your circumstances on fate, or bad luck, or bad choices. Or you can fight back. Things aren’t always gonna be fair in the real world, that’s just the way it is. But for the most part, you get what you give. Let me ask you all a question, what’s worse- not getting everything you wished for, or getting it but finding it’s not enough? The rest of your life is being shaped right now, with the dreams you chase, the choices you make, and the person you decide to be. The rest of your life is a long time, and the rest of your life starts right now.”—One Tree Hill (via wordsandlyrics)
I’ve been up every night until like 5AM. I don’t even get tired at that time… I just force myself to go to sleep. I’m suppose to go to the chiropractor in the morning at 11, but I doubt that’s going to happen. I forced myself to sleep at 1ish, but I didn’t fall asleep until 5AM; it’s eight in the morning now. I only had 3 hours of sleep -______________________________________- not even, I woke up a little earlier to talk to my step-dad. It’s not that I don’t want to go to sleep. I can’t stop thinking. It kills me inside so much, and it keeps me up for the LONGEST time. Pulling out student loans is probably the most stressful situation I’ve ever been in my entire life. Financial aid isn’t helping me much because my mom’s income is way above average. I’m wondering if they even considered that she is a single mother with 4 kids. The deadline is on July 8, and I have to come up with $18,000 SOMEHOW. All I have right now is $17,000 worth of scholarships. The loans from the bank have interest rates that are high in the sky. I don’t even want to consider that option, and they probably won’t even give me the remaining balance I have to pay for school. My last resort is to put off school for a semester or at least until I could build my own credit, and pull out a student loan for myself.
Vincent and I are suppose to go together, but I don’t see that happening this upcoming semester… At least not right now. I need a miracle. Either way I’m planning to move there as soon as I save enough money. I’ll probably take a few classes at a community college there, so I could live off campus when I transfer to JWU. It’s not like I have many options left. I hope it all works out for the best. It just sucks not being able to go to the school I’ve been wanting to go to for the longest time while all my friends are off to college elsewhere.
I wouldn’t wanna be anybody else. You made me insecure Told me I wasn’t good enough But who are you to judge When you’re a diamond in the rough I’m sure you got some things You’d like to change about yourself But when it comes to me I wouldn’t want to be anybody else.
“Life is what you give, it’s not about the stupid things you did. Its not about the way things could have been, it’s about moving on. It’s all about you. So every morning when you wake before the first step that you take, just think it’s all what you make it, and you’ll make it through.”—(via mindshatter)
“It’s official, I’m in love. How do I know? Because I promise to God I can picture us being together forever. By the way we talk to each other, how we smile and laugh together, when we prepare food, and especially when we sleep, I know for a fact you are the only women I need in my life. No other bitch can get my attention. I don’t have time for that. I want to spend all my time with you. Thinking about you makes me cry. Right at this moment, I miss you terribly. I’ve never missed someone like this much before. If I had a choice of being rich or to have you forever, it’s obvious I’ll pick the second option. That’s how much I love you. You changed my life for the better, and because of that, you deserve to keep my heart. Hold it, love it, and protect it like I know you can. It’s impossible to ever forget you. If I get rich, it’s because of you. I can’t call Denver my home unless you’re there. I will never call it home. Home is you, me, and cheeko. With OUR own bed and kitchen. Home is at your house, where I’m proud to spend at all day everyday, literally. Bottom line is, I love you Kimberley and I want to spend my life with you. Don’t forget to Skype and text me everyday! :O) :O) two smiley faces for good luck. *muahhhhhhh* *frog kiss*”—Vincent Nguyen
Even the prettiest girls feel ugly sometimes, The happiest girls cry at night, the most independent girls feel alone. We might all be living different lives, but when it comes down to it, we are all fighting the same monsters.
“You shouldn’t have to prove to anyone that you’re worth loving. You shouldn’t need to convince someone to stay. If they don’t want it naturally, they’re not going to stay. You wouldn’t want someone to stay because you’re forcing them to, but because they want to be there.”—
She’s the girl that has a few best friends & doesn’t need anymore, the girl that laughs the hardest at her own jokes. She’s the girl that will hang up on you, but then call you right back & say sorry. She’s the girl who will never leave your side when you need her, the girl who will go out of her way to cheer you up. She’s the girl who never sleeps without her teddy bear by her side, she’s the girl who says she isn’t ticklish, but really is. She’s the girl who will not give up on you if she really believes in you. She’s the girl who believes in loving somebody forever. She's me.