this song used to make me cry, it brings me back to the period of time in my life when i had completely lost myself. when everything i believed in had proved me wrong, and nothing was what i thought it was. i would bawl my eyes out while listening to this song on repeat, over and over again in my car. i hated myself for trusting someone so much, and more so because of how much it had hurt me in the end. it took me forever and a day to finally let go.
& now every time i hear this song, i’m glad to see how far i’ve come.
I don’t feel like being around anybody or doing anything with anybody. I’m not depressed either, as a matter of fact, I’m really happy. I find joy being by myself. Makes me sound like a faggot but whatever, LOL. I ran for a little bit, then did some hardcore ab workouts with one of my guy friends.
I can’t wait to get the fuck out of this school. I can’t leave until I get at least 30 credits from here to be eligible to transfer to another university of my choice. Contemplating on University of Colorado Denver, University of Colorado State, University of Southern California, or John Hopkins University. I think God was giving me a sign over the summer since I wasn’t able to go to JWU until the week before school started. I’m such a dumbass sometimes. Hopefully, everything works out. I am not going back to Texas for school… ever. I would rather not go to school at all if that were the case. There are way too many people to meet and so many places to see for me to be stuck in Texas.
Got one problem out the way for good, now I just have to figure out how to get the hell out of here, asap.
I was worried about you, but you never cared about me, none You took my money and I knew that you, you could kill someone I gave you everything, but nothing was ever enough You were always jealous over such crazy stuff
If you think I’m coming back, Don’t hold your breath.